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Let Me In..

31 Jul 2011 1 Comment

by Cecile in Rants & Ravings.. Truths & Honesty..

Can you feel me? Pushing at the edges of your consciousness, demanding entry, can you feel me? I am here, delicately making my way into you, one tantalizing infinitesimal trace at a time.

I have spent my existence solely on the receiving end of life. Allowing the energy of others to permeate mine and take control. I have left myself open and vulnerable to attack and manipulation; always reacting instead of acting, on the defensive instead of the offensive. A woman walking through life grievously unbalanced and as such, never feeling whole or stable.  All of my experiences thus far having been so much less than what they were meant to be because I was consumed by an illogical desire to live for others instead of myself. Always giving, never taking.

Let me in. Open wide and allow me access to your deepest recesses. I can feel you.. Can you feel me? Can you feel the delicious burn as I slowly make my way inside of you?

Energy is meant to be an exchange between people, experiences, sensations, emotions, .. Simply put, I give, you take. I take, you give. Until recently, I have given of myself until there was nearly nothing left to offer. However, looking back, the times where I have taken what I need, emotionally, physically, mentally, professionally, were few and far in between. I am learning now to TAKE what I need, when I need it. I am learning that it’s not only okay to become just a little bit selfish; it’s vitally necessary and healing to do so. Not so much so that I drop like a heavy stone only to fall to the other extreme of the scale, but just enough that I find my own sophisticated balance between the give and take that life has to offer. No longer am I merely acquiescing and embracing the energy of others to the exclusion of all else. I am savoring the sensation of pushing, thrusting back with vigor, allowing my vibrant energy to enter you and the world in return. I am harnessing my own beautiful power. I am finding my balance, my center and I am feeling infinitely, more enticingly powerful, than I ever have before.

Can you feel me? I am all around you.. Can you feel the warmth of my gentle caress? Coaxing you, tempting you, claiming you.. Open wide and surrender to my fiery charms..

Let me in and I will show you what I am made of.